bad days

everyone gets majorly screwed up at times… i had quite a panache for getting into trouble till i was in 8th, but after that it got ok, mainly coz i didnt have a very settled life after that. now again, as it tends to get settled, since me in 1st year of college and have lots of time (abt 4.5 years), am again getting into screwed-up mode.

and nothing, absolutely nothing is going right. my academic life is sleepless and stressed out. there is too little time for my intellectual life (i havent come up with a single major philosophical idea ever since i joined college, though its nice that i am applying, at least to some extent, the minor philosophies i did come up with). so basically its pretty dull, and on top of that my social life is an ABSOLUTE horror show. if things keep going wrong like this, i might just end up destroying myself.

the header pic

i like this place, wherever it is, and i think it would be quite heavenly when in full color…

Cell + Lib + Studies

physio test tomorrow. of the approx 12 chapters i think, i just finished the 2nd one. am feeling slightly freakish, but thankfully, i did understand the 2nd chapter… its so tough. i feel so apprehensive abt my exams.

btw, for everybody’s info i have given up my cell… gave it up abt 3 days back. its switched off, so cant receive ur messages or calls. so either call me on the landline (if an emergency) or mail me (if not an emergency). the step was taken in light of the amount of time i was spending with my cell, though i think i gave better output with the cell + lib combo, rather than no cell + no lib. as in, if i had been in the lib, i would have done chapter 1 by 11.30. would have talked on the cell and gone for lunch till abt 1.30. wud have finished the 2nd chap by 4, and the 3rd chap by now. but am too lazy to go to the lib. anyway. am shit scared.

tipu says that he’ll give me his 80 gb ipod in exchange for my n95 when he goes to iimk. not so bad a deal…

**PAUSE**

am probably putting a pause in my blogging again, for 2 reasons:
1. i cant write abt the stuff i want to write abt,
2. there’s not much stuff apart from the stuff i want to write abt, esp. not untill my exams get manageable.

the last ‘fun saturday’

bunked spm lecture yesterday, and went for lunch at maya palace, followed by ‘tashan’ at piccadily… very very average movie. then got back home, and arushi had come over for taking advice from me, abt textbooks and stuff (she has just entered +1, med) and i had a great time advising her… its so nice… but the sad part is that my authenticity isnt very high, coz my success hasnt been very high, and besides i recommend stuff no one else does. so ppl tend not to believe me blindly. anyway.

then after that we went to hm’s salad bar to celebrate tipu’s selection, and like always, i over-ate yesterday and cudnt take another morsel of food, and today morning i regretted the fact that i couldnt eat 2 meals yesternight.

and ankur wasnt very happy with me, coz i didnt turn up at the lib yesterday. and neither was elephant very happy coz of a msg i sent during the last over of the match at mohali stadium. but i slept off peacefully.

Anaphylaxis + IIM-K + Studies

at around 1 a.m., the day of my lower limb grandstage, mum had a major anaphylactic reaction (widespread allergic rxn) coz of a medicine the dentist had recommended to her for a dental problem, and her whole body was swollen, and the situation would have been fatal had she not had the presence of mind to consume an avil at around 4 a.m. when she started finding it difficult to breathe and speak. and imagine, she did not tell either dad, thinking he needed to sleep for his office work the following morning) or me (when i was studying in the adjacent room having woken up at 2.30), thinking that i was already stressed out abt the stage. in the morning then, the dentist gave her a glucocorticoids’ injection (which is an immunosuppressant, and can be life saving in such situations), and put her on a 3-days course of avil. she is perfectly alright now.

then in the morning, the iim results got out while i was taking the theory paper, and tipsy made it to iim-k, which is like… AMAZING news, and made us all soooo very happy… its a beautiful place as he keeps on telling us, having the best campus in india, and an avg domestic salary of 14.83 lakhs, and blah blah… as he keeps on going on and on abt it.

me and ankur have again started studying together in the lib (much to elephant’s chagrin ), and we intend not to get a supple, which is very very likely going by our present academic states. and today, i went to the lib for the first time in a pony thanx to all the heat, and absolutely every single friend of mine laughed, but laughed in a nice way, and besides comfort is most important, so who cares. and tomorrow is another stupid cme of the radio deptt., and thanks to gujju, we are again to sing, which is sooooo damn irritating at this point of time… but she just refuses to understand our hints.

all this heat these days, and our dependence on air conditioners makes me so so scared abt global warming.

k… bbye, gn. the reason why i did not blog yesterday is that tipu was so excited yesterday that he did not leave the net.

lib-time fun & upcoming stage

Was in the hospital yesterday till 7.30. and the time period between 5.30 & 7.00 was not strictly academic. we went to the a-block canteen which was fortunately/unfortunately empty, had 2 glasses of mango shake each, played a lot of thumb wrestling, and a little bit of other masti, walked back to b-block, took the lift up to level 5 with stops on levels 2, 3, 4… and so on, and so forth…

today, i attended the d hall, and i called the vastus lateralis (a muscle in the thigh) gastrocnemius (in the leg)! i mean, couldnt even differentiate between the region below the knee and above it. then ankur told me that during brainstorm, he had taught the students the whole lower limb thinking it was the upper limb.

p.s.: i really want to watch p.s. i love you. have heard its a nice movie.

random

sitting in the it centre right now, near the b-block canteen. just had a plate of kadi chawal, followed by a plate of maggi, and will have milk or juice in a short while, and then will have to go to gujju’s office, for some stupid cme singing. sigh! my grand stage prep is going at a bad pace, and all i really want to do is sleep, but well… and for the first time in my life, i find myself unable to blog abt the stuff i really want to blog about (for privacy reasons). ’sigh!’ again

Acads et al

had my physiology seminar yesterday, and as per the feedbacks i got, it was apparently one of the most high tech-ish & stylish seminars of our year, as i derived a lot of equations on the tablet, and talked abt how we analyse gases in the air we are breathing out, gas discharge tubes and photoelectric cells and so on… my topic was pulmonary ventilation & perfusion, and i told quite a few new things without any factual overload… and although my pp presentation was pretty good, its a different story that the speaker herself was pretty bad. my volume was probably too low, and i was laughing quite a lot, for no good reason. but anyway.

the day after tomorrow is my lower limb grandstage, and thanks to my seminar i couldnt start studying for it earlier, so now am in quite a freakish state. and yesterday we had the 2nd last anatomy lecture of our lives (hopefully). but the bad news is, balbir sir (hod, anat) is retiring tomorrow, and he is the only teacher on whom i ever had a crush. and when he wears his white t-shirt with his ray ban glasses, he is god.

and now, am going to SERIOUSLY blog regularly, except maybe tomorrow. good day!

SIGH…

i got an exam tomorrow, of CNS (central nervous system, for starters), and i dont even know the C of CNS… Barely finished guyton, not even started with ganong… want to sleep but am too tense for that… but to be honest, its so so so much fun to study. i LOVE it. ABSOLUTELY. The ventromedial nucleus of my hypothalamus and other reward centres get intensely stimulated whenever i learn something new, and perhaps more than they do for most ppl. frankly. but well, i dont like taking exams so much, coz they are pretty hard… but well, they are inevitable, so i should stop complaining…

Additionally, the past few days have been pretty cool… especially 10th (secret) and 12th April (Tipu’s birthday). I love you Tipsy… Have a great life!

will blog regularly from now on… bye bye…